IM Logs with vongolaprimo on 2009-06-03

vongolaprimo it's almost the end of the school year

vongolaprimo ..I feel sort of disappointed.

eytang8@yahoo.com Meh

eytang8@yahoo.com Try something over the summer, perhaps?

vongolaprimo sigh I'll be going back to my country for a visit

eytang8@yahoo.com huh?

vongolaprimo I'm going back to the philippines over the summer

eytang8@yahoo.com Oh...

eytang8@yahoo.com I suppose I'm also a bit dissatisfied

vongolaprimo hm..didn't seem like it..

eytang8@yahoo.com naw, I've definitely been feeling pretty unhappy these last couple of days...

eytang8@yahoo.com Ever since I was told I failed...

vongolaprimo oh...why is that? You never told me anything?

eytang8@yahoo.com It's just like two days ago

vongolaprimo who the hell told u that?

eytang8@yahoo.com It doesn't matter

eytang8@yahoo.com Just the fact that it was pointed out like that... so bluntly

eytang8@yahoo.com and I couldn't deny it

eytang8@yahoo.com But anyways, I was feeling off before that

vongolaprimo Hey, you know what? It doesn't matter. I'm pretty sure everyone else has something they fail at.

vongolaprimo Besides, you're not the only one.

eytang8@yahoo.com Eh

eytang8@yahoo.com Yeah, I guess

vongolaprimo Yeah, like that person

vongolaprimo who told you that

eytang8@yahoo.com The feeling of having to give up...

vongolaprimo he failed to be a nice person

eytang8@yahoo.com Naw, he was just pointing out the obvious

eytang8@yahoo.com I kinda needed to be told that

eytang8@yahoo.com otherwise I'd go on being weird and oblivous

vongolaprimo just who told you that? I just want to know, it's not like I'll beat him up or anything..cuz..that's kinda mean.

eytang8@yahoo.com It was Carter. He probably didn't realize how I felt

vongolaprimo Well ok

vongolaprimo Carter isn't really much a good person to begin with

eytang8@yahoo.com Naw, I don't blame him or anything

vongolaprimo Carter is pretty conceited

vongolaprimo and he fails to understand to ppl

vongolaprimo and he seems to judge ppl

vongolaprimo too quickly

eytang8@yahoo.com It's not really his fault for not seeing how I feel

eytang8@yahoo.com I keep it to myself mostly

vongolaprimo Yeah well..why did he say u fail anyways..?

eytang8@yahoo.com No, he just mentioned that I tried to get a girlfriend and failed to do so

vongolaprimo Well ok

eytang8@yahoo.com Not in a bad way or judgmental or whatever

vongolaprimo don't let that bother you

eytang8@yahoo.com but it made me realize

vongolaprimo because that's funny

vongolaprimo Just because he had 3 girlfriends

vongolaprimo he thinks he's the shit

vongolaprimo ok well first off

eytang8@yahoo.com I don't think he's really like that

vongolaprimo his first girlfriend wasn't even that attractive so he needs to shut up

vongolaprimo his 2nd girlfriend was a two timing bitch, so he can't talk shit because that relationship was just ridiculous

eytang8@yahoo.com It's not like that, not really

vongolaprimo and the 3rd one, well..that just might be the official girlfriend he's ever had so whatever

vongolaprimo Well idk

vongolaprimo Carter's been kinda annoying me lately

vongolaprimo he needs to shut the fuck up most of the time

vongolaprimo he whines too much too

eytang8@yahoo.com Maybe so

vongolaprimo just because he thinks he's all that, doesnt mean he's the shit. He's too damn overconfident.

eytang8@yahoo.com I dunno

vongolaprimo So yeah..I hate ppl who fails to realize how much of a shitty person they are.

eytang8@yahoo.com I wouldn't really say he's shitty

vongolaprimo Well, no but I really hate how he does that shit, he needs to see himself first before he talks shit about other ppl and make them feel bad

vongolaprimo I mean sure, he said that to you and u realized what u needed to do

vongolaprimo but..it bothered you didn't it?

eytang8@yahoo.com He didn't say it as an insult or anything

eytang8@yahoo.com It did kinda bother me

vongolaprimo Yeah well there ya go, and now ur feeling unhappy about it.

eytang8@yahoo.com Ah, but I can't resent him for that...

vongolaprimo Yeah well..I kinda understand that.

vongolaprimo I mean..idk it's just me.

vongolaprimo Since I can't take things like that very well

vongolaprimo I always let it get to me.

vongolaprimo in a really bad way

eytang8@yahoo.com I'm sure everyone would react in a different way

vongolaprimo Yeah, well anyways. I feel like I just talked thrash about Carter, so I apologise for that.

eytang8@yahoo.com Personally, I think I understand a little

vongolaprimo but yeah...idk when he told you that u failed to get a girlfriend that..kinda just snapped me..so yeah.

eytang8@yahoo.com I can see what you mean

vongolaprimo That's like what happened with me with Roni couple days ago.

eytang8@yahoo.com What'd he do?

vongolaprimo he started talking shit

vongolaprimo and like..he said something bout

vongolaprimo u can't get with a chick

vongolaprimo and stupid stuff like that

eytang8@yahoo.com Wow, what the fuck

vongolaprimo and then he's all like

vongolaprimo imma try to lose my virginity before I get out of high school

eytang8@yahoo.com I hope damn well he was just joking around

vongolaprimo and then I got pissed

vongolaprimo and I said

vongolaprimo "Well you what? You got nothing to offer to anyways, so just suck a dick."

vongolaprimo And then I left

vongolaprimo and I didn't talk to him for like a day

vongolaprimo I meant like

vongolaprimo you can't talk shit because you got nothing to offer a girl anyways

eytang8@yahoo.com Yeah

vongolaprimo who the hell would sleep with you if you've got nothing.

eytang8@yahoo.com Depends

vongolaprimo So yeah

vongolaprimo what was I saying?

eytang8@yahoo.com You were talking about Roni

vongolaprimo oh right

vongolaprimo so yeah

vongolaprimo I just got pissed

vongolaprimo because..I hate arrogant ppl like that

eytang8@yahoo.com Who wouldn't?

vongolaprimo ppl who also thinks they're the shit?

eytang8@yahoo.com Maybe

eytang8@yahoo.com I never realized how obvious it was to other people that I failed...

vongolaprimo Shit man, you don't fail that bad.

vongolaprimo It's normal

eytang8@yahoo.com Well, I meant getting a girlfriend

vongolaprimo you're a human being

vongolaprimo ur trying to fit in

vongolaprimo it's ok

vongolaprimo yeah well

vongolaprimo look at me

vongolaprimo I'm not really complaining anymore

vongolaprimo Fuck getting a girlfriend

eytang8@yahoo.com It's more that someone I don't really tell these things to somehow noticed

vongolaprimo that idea ruined me this year

vongolaprimo Yeah well it's obvious, you're not doing anything though. Did u really think ppl wouldn't just know?

vongolaprimo Even I knew, but I didn't say anything because I might destory that hope you're a clinging to.

vongolaprimo *destroy

eytang8@yahoo.com Well, the fact that he mentioned it as something that I was bothered by

vongolaprimo Yeah well if ur close to ppl, they notice things.

eytang8@yahoo.com I suppose so

eytang8@yahoo.com I wonder when I lost hope

vongolaprimo When you finally realized that it just seems impossible?

eytang8@yahoo.com Oh well, it doesn't matter

vongolaprimo Yeah, unless a miracle happened and you somehow just..got what u wanted.

eytang8@yahoo.com It'lll be fine in the end

vongolaprimo yeah, you'll learn how to move on

vongolaprimo it might take years

vongolaprimo if you really are devoted to her

eytang8@yahoo.com I'm starting to adjust

vongolaprimo I'm not even done with moving on yet

eytang8@yahoo.com To the realization that she doesn't care that much

vongolaprimo I mean..I think when someone rejects you, the more you start to like em even more.

eytang8@yahoo.com The way she's acting is making me like her less, I think

vongolaprimo hm, really?

vongolaprimo I read some article about it

eytang8@yahoo.com Naw, it's more like she's ignoring and avoiding me

vongolaprimo and it says studies shows that when a person rejects you, you end up liking them more.

eytang8@yahoo.com or I'm imagining it something like that

vongolaprimo ur already getting to that point huh?

vongolaprimo I was like that

vongolaprimo until now, actually.

vongolaprimo sigh, I hate ppl that doesn't need to work hard for something they want.

eytang8@yahoo.com There are simply people who are lucky

eytang8@yahoo.com or know how to do everything right

eytang8@yahoo.com Must be nice for them

vongolaprimo especially white ppl, they don't have to work to look good. They're automatically good looking. Most girls go for em too. Goddamn movies, making the standards higher. Just because movie stars are gorgeous.

eytang8@yahoo.com Hm, I'm sure that there are plenty of unattractive white people

vongolaprimo Yeah there are

vongolaprimo it's just that

vongolaprimo most girls have this high standards now

vongolaprimo fucking Jonas bros., fucking twilight. Stupid shits like that are fucking as ordinary ppl up, and now we have to live to these fucking standards.

eytang8@yahoo.com It is kinda dumb that people love people that don't exist

eytang8@yahoo.com Sort of sad, too

vongolaprimo Well, what can I say? It's part of natural selection I guess.

vongolaprimo No one would want so ugly person to be with them, or someone they don't like.

eytang8@yahoo.com Ah well

vongolaprimo Hey, when is the last day of school?

eytang8@yahoo.com I don't know, but it's in like 3 or 4 weeks

vongolaprimo damn, I gotta stop focus on stupids things like girls, and get my grades up.

vongolaprimo Well girls are not stupid

eytang8@yahoo.com I would hardly call them stupid, but yeah

vongolaprimo but..me thinking

vongolaprimo getting a girlfriend

vongolaprimo it's a stupid idea

vongolaprimo I got nothing to offer them

vongolaprimo that's one reason why I can't be engage in a relationship

vongolaprimo I have to at least change myself first

vongolaprimo even if I end up losing who I really am.

vongolaprimo But I decided that I'm me, so fuck that.

vongolaprimo they can't change that, so they can just suck dicks

eytang8@yahoo.com Hm...

vongolaprimo Yeah,..I just looked at the things I said, and I noticed how hateful I've become...

eytang8@yahoo.com You're probably feeling a lot of things...

eytang8@yahoo.com It's probably only natural to want to say stuff

eytang8@yahoo.com Though, it's not like I'd know

vongolaprimo I guess.

vongolaprimo Yeah..I guess it's only natural that I would become like this if I'm always stressed out.

vongolaprimo damn, I can't believe it's been a year.

vongolaprimo lol I'm gonna end up killing myself due to stress or something lol

eytang8@yahoo.com Hopefully not

vongolaprimo yeah I'm not really to die yet.

eytang8@yahoo.com Hopefully it's a long time before then

vongolaprimo So yeah..internet is pretty bad.

vongolaprimo It's logging me out.

eytang8@yahoo.com Mmm

vongolaprimo I think I better sleep before this thing stress me out even more lol

eytang8@yahoo.com I'd better sleep, too

vongolaprimo alright

vongolaprimo see ya tomorrow.

eytang8@yahoo.com Feelin' tired

eytang8@yahoo.com can't sleep right...

vongolaprimo meh you'll get use to it

vongolaprimo I haven't been sleeping probably either

vongolaprimo *properly

eytang8@yahoo.com Wake up randomly, have cracked out dreams and stuff...

vongolaprimo I used to have those, but now my brain is just active and my body isn't. So it's weird cuz I can feel what happening around me.

eytang8@yahoo.com Anyways, we'd both better get some sleep